My schedule been freaking hectic man...

Attend this...attend that..

3 days not on tower and it totally spoilt me. I was feeling all comfy on my bed and I had to switch my knob to the "working zone". Haiz...

But seriously damn shiok! SPLS Gathering...STA Gathering...SQSS Gathering...Whiskey Gathering...

More gathering to come!!

All it took was 4.8km to make me learn driving.

Just 4.8km of swimming and I told myself...I want to learn driving...

Wah! Today got home from work and just bomb man. I think it has been quite long since I came back and felt so tired that I landed with my dirty clothes still on.

And I woke up at 12:45....I nearly scare myself

*shit! 12:45! please please tell me it's 12:45 midnight and not afternoon already.*

My left elbow is hurting...no idea why though. Felt like a jin sat on my arm when I slept...maybe that was why I felt so sleepy.

NEED TO FILL MY STOMACH AND GO BACK SLEEP NOW!

So everybody is into chinese girl.
Hah.

Because it is so much easier to see the beauty in one when it's rather hard or maybe odd to see it in your own kind.

I believe that there is this one girl out there who is meant for me.

I know I might have used those lines too often:

"I think of you as a sister."
Real Meaning - You're not a girlfriend/wife material.
How lame is that? Why did he ask you out in the first place?

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Well you see, it is not that bad for me because I did not ask the girls out in the first place.

To you...who is reading this...or the one who experienced it.

Im sorry to say...yes it is so true what it meant. The fault...is not you.
It's me.

And sadly...true when some people say...IM PICKY.

Let me defend myself. Of course I have to be picky. This girl that I want to go out with..will ultimately be my wife. Because Im not interested to get into a fling. Thus I have to be picky. Thus certain qualities has to be in 'her' before I choose to settle down for a relationship with you.

If I know it won't work out...I will not give it a try because I do not wish to break your heart someday.

But you have to remember...not only you suffer...

I do suffer my half.

Like when I experience something so tragic and all I need is a hug from the girl who likes me...but screw me because there's no one to give it. I don't really wish to hug my bestfriend, she has somebody else to bother.

But yah...what Im trying to tell you is...I suffer too. It's so bad that when a blow come, I can change instantaneously. The next minute I can tell myself: "The next girl who ask...Im not gonna reject and Im gonna give it a try".

But when I recover from my downfall...I pick up my bits of courage and jigsaw it back and tell myself...you can handle this alone. And there Im with my that-one-fine-day-the-girl-will-come.

Sometimes it hurts so bad...I find it so comforting to sit by the lake and just let it all out like a wussy. Because I want it to end fast so that the next day I can be the me of the yesteryesterday.

Just when I told myself that there is my lid cover out there. A guy came knocking into the already spacebound me and said "Ya know Sham, marriage is not about finding that right person and marring her. It's about trying to work it out with the other party. That's marriage. And that is the beauty of it".

Russell Peters would have gone.."That's it? Just that?..*sobs* It's beautiful".

But I tell you what, I will stick to my belief. I strongly feel that somewhere out there...a girl might probably be thinking of me and wondering when will I ever ask for her number. Or whether she should make her first move instead. And that girl fits me so well.

Afterall..God created Adam and Eve. It was not Adam and Eve or Ivy or Evy. It's just her. And I think it is really wonderful..



PS: Where are you, my 12th rib cage?

PS: If my entry this time round, hurt you...whoever you are...Im so sorry. You should know that Im an honest guy. You only know someone is honest when he/she speaks his/her mind out.

Hmm..it's strange that we did not keep in contact after PSLE...but after finding you..

although Im not suppose to or better...should not even be bothered..

but...

I am feeling down knowing you are in a relationship..

long distance...wow..

guess it' going to be 1 whole week drowned in cold rain

Today was spent doing something really different. hehehe...

Hisham, you must remember that today you did something different.

In case you forgot what you did today...Im gonna leave you a clue so that you remember when you read back.

You indianised yourself. and you have labelled friday a verb!

So the next time you shall say this: Wow! So nice to go friday!

Done